Every. Time. It. Rains. Or. Turns. To. Night. Or Turns to Fall. Or Winter. Or Someone Yells. Or. confronts. Me. I. Get. Crazy. Depressed. And. Anxious. This. Is. Bullshit. I've. Been. Like. This. For. Every. One. Of. My. 35. Years. And. It. Never. Gets. Better. Antidepressants. Do. Nothing. but. Take. Away. My. Remaining. Impetus. And. Make. Me. Fat. What. The. Fuck. Every. Goddamn. Night. FUUUUUUUU-